To paint is like getting lost and finding yourself at the same time. While painting, I slip my personal business, my worries, plans, aims and relations. Still I am deeply connected with my creative consciousness, the moment I am in, the colours I recognize, the relation of forms, the rules of composition.
I always learn more about the subject I look at, but also about myself as a person, about my ways of solving a challenge, how much I dare, how aware I am, how concentrated.
I have experienced that good paintings can come after of a long time struggle, as well as a straight followed idea or a genius inspired moment. There is no recipe but awareness.
First through my pictures I begin to understand, what it is that occupies my feelings and unconsciousness and makes me come back, again and again to search for an artistic expression for that.